I always want to be inspired. Or at least inspire other people. I want to share my thoughts—good thoughts specifically. Well, basically, I see it as an outlet of all the negative things that’s happening on me. I guess it’s what you call ‘projection’ in psychology, doing things to others that you would like to happen in your self.
Life is not a cotton candy to me. But I want to see a different perspective. I want to see it as a challenge or a motivation to wake me up in the morning. Although most of the time, I see myself staring blankly at nothing, and thinking ‘what the fuck am I doing with my life’. When I’m stuck at home, I end my day doing absolutely nothing— when I say nothing, I mean 12+ hours hibernating at my bed. And when the night comes in, here comes my wide awake mind provoking me to infinity and poking me the sad truth that my life is wasted. I am wasting my time.
When things are too emotional for me to handle, I’m glad, I always have back-up. Of course, prayer is still the best buddy. Maybe, this is how God answers my prayer, my questions, my problems, my fucked-up life. I am so glad because, even at the darkest and nonsense hour of my life, I have something behind me.
One of my greatest dream (equivalent as being a passionate teacher) is to come up with a life-inspiring books. I’ve actually though of this, but if the possibility of assuming a governmental position is there, I want to become an ambassadress of good will. Haha! Why not? Though most of the times I’m the stupid assassin among our siblings’ dispute, deep inside, I really want to mediate with other people’s misunderstanding. Haha No. Not in a way of being a freak in other people’s business.
Anyhow, I want to share my favorite books. These are what help me, and somehow enlighten me whenever I need someone to talk about my problems with. These are, nonetheless, my favorite things in life.
Say hi, 223 things. :)
There’s actually a funny story behind this book. It was not bought intentionally. When we saw this at gateway, my mom hurriedly (and loudly) said ‘Bilhin niyo to para bumait kayo’. Really. Mama never fails to amuse us. Haha.
This book is not really a dosage of inspiring thoughts, but you would actually realize what you’re leaving behind. This book contains the basics, you know, things that we actually overlook and take for granted. I might compare this with ‘What I really need to know, I learned it in Kindergarten’. The only difference is that this 223 things are written in a simple and straight-forward approach. And yes, I still have a lot of things to learn.
Meet Francis Kong
I am not filthy rich. So, this almost P500-book, I might say, is really a sacrifice. Hah. But, it’s definitely a good sacrifice. I’ve actually learned about Francis Kong from my cousin. She was reading ‘Only the Real Matters’ then when she went here at our house. It was actually a course requirement if I remembered correctly. But once I get hold of his book, I want to know more. I decided that I’ll be buying his book, too. When I got at NBS, I saw and realized that Francis Kong has some bunch of books. I HAVE NO MONEY. But I am dying to buy them all. T_T pat my back please. As a consolation, hello to this book! I bought the first volume (though I have no idea if I can complete all the other books. I want). Francis Kong is definitely a genius. Even if most of the articles are intently for working groups, as a student, I’ve somewhat grasped the idea about what living a good life means. It’s a process. Waaah. No, I am not deep. So, that’s it.
And my most favorite (though I have no idea who Dan Millman is)
This. It’s been my bestfriend since 2007. I bought this at book sale in Robinson’s Lipa for P110. I was with my human best friend & book sale has been our favorite spot in high school. I am not book-ish, or book worm, or whatever book is, but I am happy with this one. When things are really rough, I always have this. I read this. I actually reread it. Although I already know the content, the advices, the teachings, I have to read this again. I want someone (or on this case, something) to tell me that my problems are just some sort of mood swings and are not really a problem at all. When I have a hard time dealing with my academic life, when it actually sucks, I have this. I read and read and read this all over again. You know, my perspective does change, somehow. I am so thankful that I did not hesitate to buy this at that time (although this price is surely a big deal then).
So yeah. Perhaps, this six-day vacation that I had opened my heart a little bit. I want to become better. I want to overcome all of my frustrations and fears. I want to help myself a little bit. I want to become someone that my family would love. I want to meet my inner self. You know, life is rough, but I am tougher. So yeah.
